It is important to dream big to achieve something big. I heard this line in a recent interview of Sachin Tendulkar. There is so much power in this statement. That particular dream gave him all the will power to become the most respected sports icon of the country. It’s the dream, a vision that fosters us with a certain scene and people like Sachin dedicate their lives to see that moment become a reality. If you are wondering why am I boring you with such an obvious testimony of a personality that every second Indian adulates, then things are just about to get interesting. I am writing to this to address a certain set of people who don’t have a dream, a la me.
I don’t want to be the VP of my Co. 30 yrs down the line. Infact I don’t want to be the VP of any company. I don’t believe in what I am doing. Hence I don’t know what I want. I don’t have any vision of what my future should be like. I don’t aspire to be any one. I would love to see myself being interviewed on TV. But in that program I don’t know the content. I don’t even know if I’ll get interviewed under the business section or entertainment section. I am just this dreamless professional who comes into work like a thousand others cursing the dawn of Monday and waiting for the clock to strike 6 pm on Friday. I feel I am in a slump where laziness has been forced upon me. I have always known myself as a person who is very restless. I like my things in order and like to know where I am going. But this particular phase has put me under such calm, I almost feel stupefied. I have actually started enjoying sloth. I have started enjoying the unlimited time I have for relaxation. I am never too busy and don’t seem to find myself in many responsible situations. So much so that I am beginning to doubt am I worth more than this.
Let’s move on from my current situation. Let’s go back to the dream. I have known this fact that dream creates a certain hunger in us and then gives us the power of pursuit. I’ve tried hard and still find myself incapable of conjuring one particular image of how I want my future to be like. I don’t have any fixed ideas about marriage or relationships and hence cant see myself feeling proud as my son shows off the cup he won from a tennis tournament. I am beginning to feel that I may not be that great a leader so I don’t see myself sitting in a large cabin with important people surrounding me with issues. Infact that life kinda scares me. At whatever age I would want to go back home at a decent hour. So that doesn’t seem like something I want. I don’t want a lot of wealth. I will never have a lot of it, I know that. I always find a way of pilferage. I spend enough and have enough to lead a life. So not really a person who would want to build a financial empire
So this is where I am. If you notice carefully I am not really thinking very negatively. This is not a case of some acute depression that I am referring to. Its just me and thousands others who are in a similar situation. They may or may not like the things as they are but they sure don’t know what’s best.
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